Chronicles of BV...

At this point I am I feel like ending my life. I have always done everything right all my life... I don't do runs, I don't cheat on my boyfriends I'm always faithful and loyal... no drama kind of girl. I work hard for the little I have but life is just not fair to me.. sometimes I feel God hates me.. I pray all the time. I pray night and day.
I read my Quran everyday wake up early in the morning to pray but still God turns his back at me. No matter who I meet they always leave me. I'm close to 30 years now can't even boost of a boyfrd talkless of a relationship. No matter who I meet they will just leave for no reason. I mean practically no reason. I don't know what else to do. I'm frustrated. Why is my life like this. I can't take this pain anymore. As Im writing this mail I have poison in my bathroom and I'm really holding myself down cos I'm about to go pick it up and end it all. I can't take it anymore. Is it wrong to be a good girl,? I can't even figure where I went wrong at any point in my life. I don't drink I don't smoke nothing. What have I done wrong to God nothing seems to be right with me even my business is not fine... I work really hard trust me when I tell you this I do and as I'm typing this message one naira is not in my account and I have pple owing me here and there. Life is sooooo cruel to me... suicide is just ringing in my head right now...